depressed!

so i saw 90.5 this week but even though i have been working out the scales have been going up and up, all hte way to 93.6


really not happy, so what do i do?? eat crap yep, clearly that is the answer. ARRGGHHHH so frustrated!

also i couldnt sleep last night cos i was so depressed about stuff. I am really scared that this is as good as it gets and you know what? thats not good enough.

so then i had easter eggs for breakfast, arrggghhhh!!!1 why do i sabotage myself???